Getting into this ‘getting fit’ thing now/college plans changed.

It is true that when people see the results happening it spurs them on to continue. A week ago, this gym idea wasn’t showing any results so I actually nearly quit. I may have gone down in trousers size again but I’ve gone up a cup size on the top. It’s normally the other way around with most people. I suppose my muscles are growing and then toning in all areas. I don’t have a clue. Apart from walking (mainly to get away from life for a while), I have no idea about fitness facts. I don’t enjoy the gym but I don’t see any other way of burning off the excess fat I’ve accumulated. I spend 2 and a half hours here on equipment  every time I go so it must be helping in some way. I’m going every 4 days now rather than 2. I wasn’t seeing the benefits while I was going every 2 days because my muscles were swelling but not developing. It was causing too much weight gain. I actually started losing bits when I had a 4 day break. I’m not fit enough and have muscle weakness on one side so every two days doesn’t help me build muscle to burn off the fat. I am far from what I want to be yet because I still have a bit of a chubby stomach (hate this area). But I’ve started doing toning exercises in between the gym. Its not aching yet but I know it will at some point. I push myself extremely hard but I’d be the same with anyone else too because I like to aim for high standards. I’m having a ‘break’ on the exercise bike as I type this. I do not actually stop. I just can’t because I feel lazy if I don’t do something while having a break. I think someone has given me a cold. I can feel it coming on.

Anyway, I’m not going back to college now to do level 2 maths until September. I didn’t get the message until too late about going for an assessment next week to see if I could go onto level 2 or have to go into pre level 2 class. I’m not even going to bother trying to get on level 2 this year because apparently the class is full now. I have to try pass my gcse law anyway so maybe it’s actually helpful to me that this has happened. I really don’t see the logic in their system. They’ve given everyone an assessment to see if they’re ready for level 2 or they would be better going into pre level 2 class. But, our results don’t come back for the level 1 exam until about 4-6 weeks. It’s not logical. However, none of this countries systems are made with logic in them anymore.


Author: Diary Of A Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. The blogger was labelled a criminal for the affects of her illness. Diary Of A Painfully Shy Introvert was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).