One paper to down… one to go… And I really do not like schools today.

I really was reluctant to go to my exam this morning. I pushed myself to get up (despite probably only sleeping for 1 hour last night). I’m too tired to revise for the next paper yet and will be going for a nap after typing this entry. It’s amazing how fast I stripped my bed covers to put in the wash and then put the new ones on because I was that tired. I’ve never done the process that fast in my entire life. I was glad to get out of that school. I haven’t been there for years. I only looked around it as a youngster before I went to a smaller school. It was always quite a large place and spread out. However, it reminded me of a prison today. I am okay with the swiping in to get into buildings etc. This place had massive gates though around each group of buildings though, even prison type turn styles. I had to ask a member of staff I happened to see trying to get in to let me out. I feel sorry for the youngsters currently at school nowadays.

I am aware that this school I did my exam at today used to have a huge issue with drugs, but there is such a thing as over the top. As a visitor, I had to be escorted everywhere by different members of staff to each department (reception to exam office and then exam office to the main sports hall). I overheard that the place is becoming a specialist ASD unit via a conversation between a new staff member and a current staff member while I was being escorted over to the exam place. As much as I understand the issues related to ASD as some (mostly the males) on the spectrum can have violent tendencies and also wandering can be a potential issue. However, I feel that for people like myself, that kind of environment would be extremely scary. The enclosed area and confinement is something that doesn’t make us feel comfortable. I have been in that kind of environment in my teen years and I ended up with more severe issues than when I was put into it. I was glad to get out of that place. If that is how the schools which are being turned into academies are going then I’m completely against them. 


Author: Diary Of A Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. The blogger was labelled a criminal for the affects of her illness. Diary Of A Painfully Shy Introvert was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).