Sleep needed, been awake all day (I know that is unusual).

I am tired right now. It’s a positive tired feeling because I’ve kept myself busy all day. I wasn’t able to fall asleep (despite being tired) to have a nap, so I ended up getting up and doing things around the flat. I have to make the most of the times I can summon enough physical energy to do those kinds of tasks. It doesn’t happen very often nowadays. I need to try to improve my energy levels because if I have to try to get a job in order to get by (if I can’t get PIP back), then I will need energy to be able to do any job. I know that I’m getting more exhausted, more often and I’m hoping that I can find the cause of it. I’m currently having tests to try to get to the bottom of it. I have a blood test in the morning.

I can’t go on in this way because there are times that I get home and the exhaustion is that debilitating I just go to bed. I don’t even care if it’s early afternoon. When it’s literally at the point where it is actually painful to stay awake, this is absolute worse times. I keep getting migraines at the moment too.  It is probably not helping with the stress of exams. Even if I did start to go out to socialise again, I’d not have the energy to do so. I barely have enough energy to do every day things at times. I can be okay at the start of the day. I then go out to do whatever I have on. I come back and I have to sleep because I literally can’t stay awake. I don’t feel like I can live a ‘normal’ life because I never know when it is going to ‘zap all my energy away’. 


Author: Diary Of A Painfully Shy Introvert

A blog written by a female diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome but suspected PDA in more recent years. The blogger was labelled a criminal for the affects of her illness. Diary Of A Painfully Shy Introvert was created to not only create awareness of the PDA part of the spectrum; but also to educate the public hopefully creating understanding in order to stop future generations being let down and labelled negatively. Disclaimer: There may be parts of this blog which viewers may find upsetting as it contains accounts of real life events which have been quite traumatic. However, it is all to help create a sense of understanding and combat the fear surrounding all aspects of mental illness and Pathological Avoidance Syndrome (a very little understood part of the autistic spectrum).